treat this as a plead: if u r reading my blog, please comment coz i really need those during this period in the next few posts coming up ...
it has come a time when i should sum up my recent thots & feelings ...
1st, as baselines, i'm a pessimist, extremist & escapist.
perhaps it has been the way i look at things and how i want things to be the way i want, and so i love escaping when things are not the way i want
i've always thot that i need this place i'm in does not have the type of ppl i want, those who really care abt one another and that they give high priorities to ppl. but the thing i see abt my place is that ppl do everything for themselves, and that the priorities of ppl are really to do well for themselves.
so i think that i'd escape this place the moment i get a good chance to, in the hope of finding ppl who may be like-minded or at least placed caring & loving as their priorities. i mean, this is what keeps me going and i guess it is one of the fundamental needs of humans.

I am perhaps also someone who is consistently uncontented with what i have and hence always fighting to do more. perhaps tht's one reason why i'm always so greedy and want so many things in my life and i cant bear to give up any of the opportunities which i can get ...