i'm a person full of angst. my most impt thing is care & appreciation and i need a lot of care.
i see what i think are unfairness & fuzzy processes going on.
coupled with what i think is underappreciation, i do bear a bit of unhappiness, tho it has finally stopped now. maybe it's all my misconception and that the truth is i totally got this whole world wrong, but what i saw was ppl getting away with things and getting in thru unseen mtds. sum1 wise told me it's jus luck, but in any case, the effect on me is done.

but now they look real nice & i can feel tht things are getting real good and i dun think they're fake or lacking.
will it be bad to still make decisions rmbing what happened in the past?
i had devoted almost my whole time before i reach this stage. would it make tht great a difference if i continued to really devote?
or should i go chase something else? something which is a long-term dream?