i dunno
she expects things
she doesn't wan me to do some things

i always thot i could do whatever she wans me to
i have been trying to

hopefully she's happy this way & tht she will not be angry

hm ... i have what i naturally am & want
i wan to learn hip hop, skydive, she doesn't wan me to

she says i should rest & not tire myself out
i think if not now, it's never, when i grow older

she thinks i'm ambitious, joining so many things
i think i need to push myself & thing, coz i'm a HUGE lazy procrastinator

i know i will never overpush myself coz i always want to slack

maybe joining many things will make me less focused on each of them
but she din mention tht, implying tht's not the point?

but hip hop is what i have been wanting to learn
i keep pushing things back. i have to stop that & start doing it

At all cost!
But i guess her point is just tht i shldn't join. :(

i told her on msn i will try to change & be lazy so that i will not want to learn new things anymore. but i'm sad to do tht. :( if i really have to do that. i really need to have some help. :(