Challenging Myself

It is obvious with your thought, intentions and actions that people fall into second place, while self is the top priority. If people were really your top priority, then you would have stayed here for them, not just because you can’t bear to leave them, but also because you shouldn’t have cheated them in this year-long commitment, keeping this from them all the while. This show that you can for anything to other people just to meet aims of the self.

You always said that you want to be a sincere person who give yourself to other people and treat your friends as important. You always complain that other people change, they do not care, not sincere and are not compassionate enough. Now you are the very one who is like this. Are you totally going against your own cause in life? Do you even have a cause in life? Are you totally confused about what you want in life? Why can’t you stay strong & stand firm in your aim in life? Can you please find your proper direction in life before making more people suffer because of your decisions!

Do you have morals and principles? I thought you’ve decided to change and be committed to people around you? Are you stopping halfway and reverting back to your old self of keeping people at bay and keep feeling sad for yourself? Do you know that what you are doing now is doing exactly that and you will be unconfident again for the rest of your university life?

Why do you want to get into such a practical way of living life so soon? So opportunistic like in the adult work? Why can’t you be totally sincere and be foolishly giving to your friends and do everything for your friends? This will be a once-in-a-lifetime! You will never be able to do it ever again in your life!